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2012-02-12T21:25:00.002+08:00

10/2/12 Friday

My last day of work at the singapore mint. I think i'll kinda miss jenny, hahas! Her jokes (Y). She said she'll miss me more because she'll be alone again for the rest of the year till the next chinese new year again. She gave me her email so that i could write to her time to time. (: Oh ya, got her a present & i hope she'll like it. (:

11/2/12 Saturday

Met up with my secondary school bunch of people, more of sec 1 and sec 2 clique, my seniors. Hahas! 2 years never see them (Y) Do some catching up and played arcade, i swear they're damn good at it! I've never stayed inside any arcade that long before! Catching fishes! hahahas!

Managed to convince ah liew to meet us, headed down to clark quay with weikai while waiting for jewellcy. (: Walked around looking for food, but realised that only macdonal is affordable. Hahahas! So we make our way to liang's court and had our meal there. As usual, talking nonsence can make our day! SUPER HIGH~! Hahas.

Reached home at about 4am this morning and slept at around 5am. Slept till 11am and was asked to wake up from my mum, accompany her and my aunt to shop for fruits & have lunch. WAHHH, damn tiring only, but just go. hahas! Came back home 3pm and continue sleeping. :P

Heading back to school tomorrow, no idea what're supposed to do, but i think i'll spend time doing my power point slides for tuesday's presentation. Last presentation in Ngee Ann. (:

2012-02-08T22:18:00.005+08:00

I didn't knew time would pass by so fast, age of 20 now. I didn't want to grow up so soon, guess i know the reason behind this saying, "When we're young, we often wished that we were grown up and we can do everything that we wanted to. But when we're older, we wished time could turn back and we can live like a kid, once again."

But we do not know at a young age, that when we can do EVERYTHING that we WANTS to, it also meant that we're responsible for every action we take. With great powers comes great responsibility as well yea? Super heros!

But that's not what i wanna talk about actually, more on decision making, because i hate it. I don't mind making decisions like, you know...what to wear, where to eat, what to eat, what movie to watch, etc. But when it comes to be related to your life, your future, i freaked out, totally. It has never been that hard, before.

Things that i never thought i'll be thinking and stressing about; FUTURE. Can't really see a clear path ahead of me now and i wonder where will my life leads me to. I hate cross sections, making a decision on where to go and what to do, afraid that i would make the wrong choice that i will regret later.

Yes, often i tell myself, as long as i think that this is my best, it's enough. Even though it will never be enough for the people out there in the society, or perhaps, even in our own home. I can't help it, but to feel stress and somewhat useless. I don't know what i'm born for, just to occupy another small space on earth, or what? Though i believe we're all borned special... some way or another.

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS
Tell me how to be not stressful, when...

1) You're about to graduate and you don't know where to go and what to do after that.

2) Everyone is telling you to go for further studies and when you look at your grades.... *facepalm* you know you don't really have a lot of choices.

3) Overseas studies. *look into bank account* Okay, let's drop this idea.

4) Let's go into which uni is possible to apply. *searching in progress* List out all of them and you're interested in none actually.

5) Look into working straight after graduation but... who really wants you? & even if you're able to work, is the pay enough for the rest of your life?

6) AIR STEWARDESS LA! (Y) 9999+++ people applying for it. chances of getting in 0.00000000001%

7) *think harder* have you ever seen a 50 year old air stewardess? ._______.

8) Thinking of getting into any uni that you can get into, but what?

9) What if you get rejected by all the uni that you've applied for? Rot for the rest of the year... ...?!

10) Okay, let's sign up and think about the rest later. *signing up in progress* SIMI SAI?! Still must type essays? Last Warning zhen de.

11) Back to... so what if i don't get in? .__."

OH MAN~! So many things to think about now. I'm going C R A Z Y ! Like literally. Sorry about the rant that goes on and on and on and onnnn~ like never ending.

Gonna get back to work, yea... my final internship report. This is my last week of work, but i bet i'm going to miss working here (The Singapore Mint). Most probably because of the people here, even though i ate lunch not so on time and travelling to the company is such a hassle and and and and... ... So much to complain about, nevertheless i'll still miss this place, more of the people.

2012-02-01T00:14:00.004+08:00

Chinese New Year Photos! :D

Went back to Malaysia, had a great time gathering around with my family. Now grandpa can't really remember anyone else except ah jiu, he's getting old. Gonna cherish the time spend with him and the rest. (:

Came back from Malaysia, Sec Sch Gathering over at tiowee's house as usual. Totally loving it, gamble gamble eat eat play play talk talk. It was awesome. That night i had supper at chong pang nasi lemak with darling and the rest as well. YUMMMY.

Alright, enough of words, enjoy the photos.

2012-01-12T20:32:00.002+08:00

Waiting for someone you love is never easy. It might even be irrelevant especially when the one you're waiting for isn't aware that you're waiting and you have no idea what exactly you are waiting for... ...

2012-01-12T20:01:00.002+08:00

Yes choices. I believe everyone would love it if they have a choice, it's always better than pushing you to something/somewhere whereby you do not have any choice at all.

However having choices also means that you have to make a decision. Actually all of us have been making decisions unconciously. Chocolate or Strawberry, Mrt or Bus, To do the work today or tomorrow. However we tend to get stucked when making important decisions whereby the choices we make will actually make a difference in our life.

Currently, i'm kinda stucked. I don't know whether to study at a university first or work first. & if i choose to study first, what course should i take up? One factor is that i have to be clear and sure of what i want to work as when i grow up, before choosing a course to take. There's a lot of choice and i'm not sure what i want.

Have been doing some research on certain courses that i'm interested in, however i'm still confused on whether to study or work first. Because it's a waste of time and money, and time is = to money, so i'm wasting more money, if i were to study a 3-4 years course and after i graduate i find a job that's totally not related.

Okayyy~! Troubles aside. 4 more days to the Big 2 at the front of my age. Args, time passes so fast. I better enjoy myself for the last few days being a 19 years old. I don't know whether being 20 is still being consider as a teen, but if it's not, i would like to say that my teenage years is awesome and my memories is beautiful. (:

2012-01-09T22:51:00.002+08:00

SUPER BELATED CHRISTMAS PRESENT EXCHANGE

Wallet and coin pouch for him, hello kitty polariod for me.
DAMN CUTE~! I can imagine myself taking super a lot of photos using that. (Y)

Alright, 10:52pm. Gonna hit the sack now. Goodnight Earthings.

2012-01-09T20:59:00.002+08:00

My Last day of 2011 & First day of 2012

Spend my last day of 2011 with the 17th comm;vaches. Had dinner at a thai restaurant, food was not bad. Miss them a lot a lot, like really a lot a lot. If only yvonne and jewellcy could make it down to join us, but they're kinda exhausted from the comm training. I like how it's like, to be able to feel the same around them, even though we don't meet up very often, it still the same. :D

Hilda Ah Ma and Ah Liew had a sleepover at my house, counted down and had a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG girls talk in my room till around 5am i guess. Hilda tohhhhhh first hahas! Woke up that morning, with only 3-4 hours of sleep, we watched the smurfs movie at my house and i headed out with my mum and aunt while they went out to eat lunch. :D

Steamboat with the Awesomes that night and headed to ain's house aftermath, watched some movies, took some photos and slack. Hahahas! As usual, cannot tank the night so i went home earlier than the rest, they went to supper at jalan kayu after that! I'm already in my lala land. :D

Working this few days has been tiring, super peak period as Chinese New Year is just around the corner, around another 2 weeks times. Can't wait for CNY, family dinner on the 22nd of Jan @ the holland Village crystal jade xiao long bao buffet! :D YUMMMMMMMMY! Also, will be heading to malaysia as usual, might be staying there longer this time round, i've a break of 1 week for CNY. :D YIPPEEEES!

PS:// Next week is my birthday & i'm turning 20. It's like (: because it's my birthday but ): because i'm turning 20.

2011-12-31T14:54:00.002+08:00

2011 is about to end and 2012 is just around the corner. It's been a long year and all that we've been through is real. To all who walked through this year with me and seen me through the days as i grow, telling me and showing me that i'm never alone, thank you.♥

I don't know how to put those feelings in words but i really do appreciate all of you, those that helpped me through life, supported me, gave me strength and courage to face difficulties, gave me hope when i feel like giving up and also giving me advice when i'm lost.

I'll never thanks enough. Too much to say to too many people. Let's put all the memories within us, leave all the unhappiness behind and move on to a better future.

Deep down from my heart, i wish everyone a happy new year & let's explore the next 365 days ahead with an open heart and mind. (:

2011-12-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

"The moment you stop loving, is the moment you stop living. Gonna keep loving."

2011-12-30T19:49:00.002+08:00

Here are the belated photos! :D

Celebrated sister jiayu's 15th birthday on 22nd December, falls on 冬至 as well.

Mummy prepared steamboat and also tang yuan on that day, causing my stomach to be damn damn full! Tang Yuan freaking nice. Happy 15th birthday to jiayu again. :D

On The 23rd December, went rebel at night with the SNs.

I can't denied that i was partially drunk that night, head pain daooooo~! But i had fun with sister germin that night, it's crazy! :D At least for awhile i wasn't thinking about anything at all.

On the 24th December, Headed out at night for dinner and count down for christmas with the awesoooooome peeps.:D

We went for dinner at vivo city, walk around the place. Went to play bowling and pool after that, count down at the bowling area. (: Sang some chirstmas songs while playing damn fun fun fun! :D Aftermath, we went walked to a playground damn far away, it's like trekking. The playground damn big and fun! Got merry go round hahas! Lepak at the macdonal nearby after that, spam the most photos over there to keep ourselves awake. Cabbed home with darling jewellcy at around 4plus am because we cannot tannnnnnnk! Reach home, bathe and tohhhhhh immediately.

26th December, it's a monday but i don't need to report to work because it's a public holiday. WEE-U- WEET! :D Go shopping with my family at Nex. Bought some New clothings for the upcoming CNY. (:

After that headed to Tio Wee house to celebrate his birthday according to the chinese calendar date. New doggy at tiowee's house, orleng hahas! Now got one apple one orange. So cute! :D

Heading out for dinner soon, so HUNGRRRRRRRY! Roar. Tomorrow going to have a count down session with the 17th vaches. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Gonna spend the last night of 2011 and catch the first sun rise of 2012 together. (:

2011-12-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

TODAY I MEET DARLING FOR DINNER. DAMN FULL PREASE! HAHAS!

Finally get to pass her belated birthday present to her & i'm glad that she loves it. (: Darling, remember you're not alone & i'm just a phone away. Loves.

PS:// I CAN TANKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! ):

2011-12-19T22:38:00.004+08:00

18th Annual General Meeting; Officially Over

Got my NPOB Alumni bagde already, i feel so... old. RAHHH! That night was awesome, i mean i didn't expect the planning team to actually dig out all our old photos/videos. It's like my 3 years of memories in npob flashes right before my eyes; priceless.

I feel like it's just yesterday i had my first I camp, my first help out, OBS days, Comm service days & all the crazy camps and trainings days. 3/4 of my life in ngee ann surrounded around NPOB and i looked forward to every friday not because of the training, but because of the people i want to be with. The feeling, i can't describe it with words.

Good job to the 18th Committee, carry what you've gain from this experience and may it help you through your life in the future. Congratuations to all that made it to the 19th Committee, give it your best shot and bring NPOB to a greater height with pride. This journey is never easy, keep that faith in you strong and it will eventually leads you to where you wanna be. GOODLUCK. (:

Even though I can't promise the future but at least I can assure you that these will be part of my best memories in life that I'll never forget & I'll always remember you guys with a smile on my face. ♥ You people impacted me, witnessed my growth and the bond is never gonna break.

Estimated 2 more months to the end of my internship; to the end of my poly days.

WOOHAAAAA~! SISTERS CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE.

IMISSHERSOMUCH.CATCHINGUPWITHEACHOTHERISAWESOME.
IHAVEHERANDSHEHAVEME.LOVES.
GERMIN.JIAXUAN

2011-12-14T21:42:00.001+08:00

Time is passing out too slow, yet too fast. Counting down, 3 more days to AGM.

2011-12-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

& I hope that you will always find a reason to smile, every single day. (:

2011-12-13T22:09:00.005+08:00

Recently i'm getting more and more tired from work, having nightmares and waking up in the middle of the night is just making it worst for me. Sometimes i can't control where my thoughts wander to & i can't help it but to think about it.

I hate the kinda feeling, when you wake up in the middle of the night knowing everyone around you is asleep and you don't know who to look for. The loudest silence i've ever heard. I picked up my phone, typed a message but as usual, i put it down and turn away from it without sending it.

I shall wait the wait while i walk the walk. That faith in me will bring me through, gotta believe.

Gonna share a few photos that i've edited during my free time at home.

Officially 4 more days to AGM. Kinda excited but also, kinda sour. I don't know how should i be feeling... I'll know on that day itself. Till then. Goodbye.

2011-12-07T01:07:00.002+08:00

I don't know what i should do...
Waiting is never easy, it's even harder when you don't know what you're waiting for.

Working at singapore mint have been same, working alone is stress, feel damn insecured without my colleague. But i survived the day alone. (Y) Goodjob to me.

I am not fine but so what? Life goes on. Gonna be stronger than before...

2011-11-30T20:20:00.003+08:00

DAY 6 & 7 of work! :D

Worked with hasima on tuesday because jenny is on leave again. As usual took a lot of photos here and there together. (: Work is easier with her around because we're kinda slack when there's no customer. Like we can talk and talk and talk till the time strike 5.30pm. But of course there's still work to do. Closing , count stock and stuff like that.

There's this customer on tuesday, he gave me a present for christmas in advance. So nice of him right! (: The piggy bank damn cute, a doggy one. (Y)

TADAHHHH~! KE AI BAH! :D It's still inside a box now, shall open it together with the rest of my present during christmas. (:

Met the awesome ladies shaojun, yixuan & bayla at night for dinner at china town, a vegetarian restaurant that i used to go often with my family.

The night is damn awesome. After dinner we had koi, took bus down to orchard H&M. Bought black clothings for work basically. Walked to cine and chill at artease while waiting for wayne to come. Wayne drove us back, chit chated all the way while we're in the car. (Y) We complain more actually.

Thanks zoe for the owl ring present from taiwan & also a box of sweet. :D Now i have a set of owl accessories. LOL & i'm still loving my L O V E hannah on my fingers. ♥

Today work was super busy and i'm like super tired. D: I nearly fell asleep while doing stock card. *die* Actually i'm quite sick of my work already, i mean... everyday i'm doing the same thing. Just that i'm facing different customer. Just a few more months to go! Everyone jia you! :D

I don't want NPOB AGM to come so soon. ): I wanna linger here, a little longer here, a little longer here with you(s). I know i'm going to miss you guys damn much after graduating from NP.

2011-11-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

5TH DAY AT WORK. TODAY IS SAD.

Early morning go work stomach pain. Don't know is it because i didn't eat dinner or what... Pain still nevermind, cannot rest somemore must work work work. ): SAD MAXIMUM.

Oh ya, today is the first day i met Jenny (my official colleague). She's not that scary after all, even though i can talk more with hashima. (: && She'll be with me tomorrow again because jenny took off again. HAHAS! Gonna bring some snacks to munch tomorrow because got no time for lunch some times, sad life.

Uploaded photos taken from What's Next 2011 to facebook already.(Y) Huai yue too. Shall upload some here to share. For more, please go to facebook.com thank you. Hahas! :D Here you go...

SHALL END THIS BLOG POST WITH A GROUP PHOTO OF WHAT'S NEXT 2011.♥

2011-11-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

NPOB CAMP: WHAT'S NEXT! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Going for a camp tonight & will be back on sunday afternoon. Most probably my last official NPOB camp. Gonna have muuuuuuuch fun with the rest. (:

2011-11-24T20:37:00.003+08:00

3RD DAY IN SINGAPORE MINT :D

Early morning daddy send me to work, GAHHH GAHHH GAHHHHHHH~! Freaking tired, seriously not a morning person, have been sleep early everynight and waking up early. Perhaps slowly i'll get used to it. Need to slowly adjust my body clock. (:

Morning usual routine, do stock card, check stock for yesterday's sales. So many numbers, see until eyes also bluuuuuuuuuuuuuuur! Hahas! But i'm getting the hang of it already, so still not that bad. Gotten more confidence to pick up phone calls now too. (:

Let me intoduce you to my working partner HASHIMAH! ♥

Yeap yeaps, there she is. Took photo with her today, when we're like super free, because raining again! Rain: no customer. Jiat lat sia today sales like a lame. Some more the customer is because yesterday come before today come buy more. But she told me that NEWYEAR and CNY period sure busy like CRAZY! I prepare to die already, && New Year no off day. Sad D: Christmas also no off day. ):

Today got special people come find me! TADAHHH~! (:

Yixuan came by today! :D SOOOOOOOO HAPPY! She bought some snacks for me to makan, so i won't be that bored doing work but i seriously growing fatter and fatter. OH NOOOO~! ): Need to excercise soon.

Daddy came to fetch me after work! Yiippeeees! Send yixuan to her bus stop as well, so she don't need to walk so far & it's also raining. :D Planning to find her at Ochard Central next week, give her a surprise. Also planning to meet up with my FYP mates one of the day next week for dinner. (:

Sometimes i feel like letting go, just to not let myself fall any deeper. It's like walking down a long road without knowing if anyone is there at the end of the road. But whatever it is, should't let this bother me too much...

2011-11-23T22:00:00.004+08:00

2ND DAY IN SINGAPORE MINT! :D

2nd day working at the singapore mint. Kinda tired today, perhaps because of the weather, rain rain rain rain... super cold cold cold & there's like no customer coming because of the rain. Making me more restless because there's no customer to attend to... So i took some photos around, firstly to prepare for my presentation after my internship and also to update my blog! :D

Actually the dragon year coin kinda nice. Hahahas! So i'm like making advertisement here, if you wanna purchase any dragon year coins you can order it now and get them after the 1st of january 2012. Or you can come down personally to any of the singapore mint outlet after the 1st of january 2012 to get them. There's one at Orchard Central level 2 and one at the Chinatown Museum. OKAY DONE. There's like 1kg one, super huge coin (:

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I seriously still don't dare to do cashier even though my partner have been teaching me and i've been watching her. Because the amount of money is not like a few dollars, it's like HUNDREDS! D: Scary shit... I'll try when i'm more confident to use. But i like to tap on the screen because it's like touch screen, so fun! :P HAHAHAHAHAS! Okay not supposed to play with it in the first place. *oppps*

See the pretty wrapping paper, free gifts for the customer who purchase anything in the shop. I rolled them one by one okay! Lots of paper cuts on my hands. Today i wrapped four small little boxes, customer want me to wrap so yea, just wrap lo. Nearly forget how to wrap present. LOLS! But succeed, i think i wrap until quite nice leis. :P Hahahahas!

Everyday someone from the office will come down to take over me and my partner during our lunch time so that we could go into the super cold room and have our nice lunch. But today, the person super duper damn late lar! Freaking hungry, luckily my partner got bring some snacks. So she shared it with me. :D

We have our lunch at like 3pm. Super late right! ROAR! Turning into hungry monster already. Hahahas! Oh ya, i brought my super big water bottle to work too, so that i can drink it now and then. Because the water there forever like not enough hahas! Lazy to walk in and out to get water as well. So yea, just bring it along.

This is quite interesting. Customer will get a chance to guess how many coins are there inside this glass with every $100 spent. A lot of them ask me, i tell them i also don't know hahahas! They thought i know don't want tell them ): But if i really know i also cannot say what. tsk tsk, some people uh, no brain or what. LOLS!

This is the destop that i'll be using, when there's like no people and i have nothing to do, i'll facebook there even though i can facebook through my phone hahas! I have to do collections, coins thingy all from this destop. Quite cheem at first but i get the hang of it already. & see that black phone beside the destop! I have to pick up calls!

"Hi, good afternoon, singapore mint." I'll always say this when i pick up the phone. I feel like trying one day, calling to Ochard central outlet to talk to yixuan. HAHAHAHAS! Will be damn fun. Of course cannot talk very long lar. Just to try. :P

Took the shuttle bus home, alighted at cck and i took a cab home, cheap cheap only because very near. Because it's raining and i'm freaking tired. Bayla just talked to me, kinda miss her because like super long never see her already siol. Hope to see her soon yea. (: Shall end today post with a picture of me and her.

Tomorrow is THURSDAY! 1 more day to friday! :D && one good news, my daddy can pick me up tomorrow after work! YEAH~! (:

2011-11-22T19:38:00.003+08:00

MY FIRST DAY OF INTERNSHIP.

Was kinda nervous and at the same time excited the night before, because i don't know how is it going to be like and what will i be expecting to do. So whatever it is, i went with an open mind, not expecting anything.

Daddy was kind enough to send me there, because i'm afraid i might get lost and you know, end up being late for the first day. Since daddy's company around the same area so he decided to send me over first. :D Reached damn freaking early today, 7.30am reached already.

Talked to the person in charge and also to steph the manager. Went down to the coin gallery, the place that i'll be working at. This lady call shimah, she's 26 but she look damn young & her wedding date are like next week @ Bukit Panjang, she invited me (: hahahas! We chit chat throughout the day, she taught more lots of things, like cashier, stocks related stuff, product information, closings and a lot more. So many things to absorb.

Basically i find that the people working here at the office on top are kinda friendly, they'll buy lunch back for me and shima & steph (manager) will buy bread back for us too. So nice of her right! (:

FIRST DAY. QUITE AWESOME! :D Tomorrow will be better.

Below are some photos uploaded by alvin woo, from the HMS helpout. Sharing some nice photos! (:

Shall sleep early tonight. Waking up at 6am again tomorrow & for the rest of the working days. ._____________________.

2011-11-12T03:21:00.000+08:00

More than a friend, less than a lover.

2011-11-11T12:35:00.000+08:00

SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET! (:

2011-11-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i can't help it, but to feel damn freaking useless, as compared to the rest of the humans out there. I totally have no idea how to complete my stupid model (bed) without my dad, i swear he's like helping me throughout. I'm thankful, but then again, what if he's not around?

& come to think about it, i'll be having my Final Year Project Presentation next friday and in about 3 months time, i'll be graduating. What should i do after that?

I sleep everytime & anytime, whenever i feel like running away from reality. Running away from EVERYTHING that i don't wanna face... Sign of avoidance yea?

Yes i still can't get over it, over myself, over the past. I can't stop blaming myself, why am i so STEWPIG! LASTWARNING TO MYSELF! ): Why would i end up here, & cause so much misery to myself. But whatever it is, i can't change the fact that i can't turn back time, don't have a freaking time machine yea.

But still, bits and pieces in life still did give a little sweetness to me in life. Making my life, not so bad afterall! (: Thank you, all these special humans that bring rainbows to my life when it's just black and white.

2011-11-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is AWESOME. Let the photos talk! (:

Went to East Coast Park, skate skate skate and fall down! Hahas! Headed to eat and the cathay for movie! There's only me and huai yue watching you are the apple in my eyes & the rest watch in time. It's damn damn damn nice nice (:

Today nothing special, ate dinner with sisters. Tomorrow CHIONG project!

2011-11-07T03:28:00.000+08:00

2011-11-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Michelle finally uploaded more photos on USS halloween & they're quite awesome, take a look at them! :D

AWESOOOOOOOME RIGHT! :D But you know, i see all the MONSTER face, it still reminds me about that night, NIGHTMARE UH! Hahahas! We have to thanks michelle for helping us take so many many many photos! LOVEEEEES! (Y)

Ate lunch at home together with my family, 5 people sitting down at the dinning table, been a long time man! (: Dinner with sisters at lot 1, because they're kinda sick of yew tee food! Hahas.

Might be going to ECP tomorrow for some cycling/skating & maybe some star gazing session with the lovely people. :D

A special someone who will be with you till old...

2011-11-05T23:52:00.007+08:00

BACK FROM NPOB TOWER HELPOUT!

I survived the WHOLE entire day even though i only have more or less 1 hour of sleep because some awesome babi on her song the whole night so i'm like listening to what the songs are saying, their lyrics. LASTWARNING. Hahahas!

Will be sharing some of the photos and videos. The videos are taken at loft using my lappy! & they're DAMN FREAKING FUNNEH! (Y) Gonna be part of my best memories in ngee ann man! (,: VIDEO FIRST!

PS:// Please off the background music at the bottom left side before playing the video so that you can hear them better. (:

VIDEO NUMBER ONE, STORY OF MY LIFE .________________. My friends abit violent here. Sometimes my friends can get really irritating & you know... stuff like these. But still, i dunno why i love them. ♥

VIDEO NUMBER TWO, FOR JIANHOWE & SOME PEOPLE! This is kinda fail, but you know... it's the thoughts that matters ♥

VIDEO NUMBER THREE, WE CAN'T SING IN PEACE! Our background people, lastwarning! & just another video the ends the same way .______.

VIDEO NUMBER FOUR, NEVER GONNA SING THIS SONG FOR AT LEAST ONE MONTH! Seriously, all my background people... LastWarning TTM! But you know what, these's gonna be part of my best memories. (,: ANW! Notice how many times bayla drop that blanket! HAHAHAS!

PHOTOS! (:

More photos will be shared here as soon as those people upload the photos on facebook. (: There's a lot more nice nice photos! (Y) Hahahs!

This helpout is actually one of the most sian experience for me... Super lots of problem and also the people don't understand us. I kept repeating myself to them on the safety but it's like going into left ear going out from the right. LASTWARNING. My heart almost jumped out a few times i thought accidents's gonna happen right before my eyes! However, the day still ended great! It' the green people that make my this trip down worth the while. All the loft memories is gonna stay for quite some time. (:

After the helpout, daddy came to send me home, put down my stuff, wash up and headed down to clementi mall to meet the lovely girls, jewellcy darling, sayang ain and funneh michelle (: Ate at soul garden. My whole dinner time with them is super awesome, we kept laughing and laughing non stop, seriously lastwarning already! hahas! Sayang bayla & cutest vonny came from USS hahas! Joined us awhile, ate free icecream and we went home (: Photos here below...

Spend my time uploading photos and videos on facebook and laughing at them at the same time hahas! Kinda tired already though, gonna rest soon, only sleep like 1 hour last night, feel like K.O-ing already.

GOODNIGHT LOVELY PEOPLE THAT MADE MY DAY SO AWESOME! :D

2011-11-04T12:32:00.002+08:00

IN TIME

Super awesome movie, but i guess i'll never want to live in that kinda world, whereby the rich can live on forever and ever but the poor die young. Not only that, there'll be people going around stealing your time and hence, killing you. You need to pay everything using that time too, transport, food, bills... The rich will normally wear long sleeves or smth to cover their time on their hand & they'll have a lot of guards around them to protect them. THIS IS SO SCARY!

I cried like 2 times in the cinema, first time because his mother died when her time turn... ...

Damn sad lar! His mother just gave him like 15mins to buy breakfast in the morning and they're supposed to meet somewhere at night so that he can pass some time to his mum. The stupid evil bus driver don't let her take bus because she not enough time ): She only have like 1.5 hours left and the bus fee is 2 hours! WTH & by walking there will take her 2 hours as well, the bus driver say " THEN START RUNNING" WTH

He's there waiting with some nice flowers prepared to give his mum, the bus came without her coming down & he know something's wrong so he started running too, he run and run, she run and run... he knew her time is running low, he run as fast as he could so that he could transfer the time to her in time, but it's too late, when he hold her in his arms, she's dead. ):

2nd time, his girlfriend... something similar happened and i thought she's gonna die so i cried but he managed to transfer some time to her in time. I'm like PHEW~! (,:

So that's all about the movie i watched last night. Shall update again tonight. :D Will be staying in loft tonight because there's like tower helpout tml at 7am! There's so much things to do today, blood donation, NPOB training and staying a night together with the lovely people! (:

2011-11-03T16:22:00.002+08:00

1.11.11 Happy Birthday Mummy!

Bought a LV wallet for my mum, shared together with my sisters and daddy. Made a birthday card also. Totally glad that she loved it! (:

Oh ya! I have been exercising and training at home for days, reason so that i don't get any fatter hahas! No lar, to make my vein grow bigger. So that the nurse won't reject me tomorrow when i go for blood donation. :D

Just came back from meeting weifeng and ain for a super late lunch. Drank mushroom soup and coke float hahas! They don't have rootbeer already sad! Weifeng just finish his law paper at SIM, hope he'll pass (: Ain went to the library and bayla say she's coming to find me, shy! I think she miss me uh~ Hahas! But i don't know where's she now... 4:40pm already! && YEAH~! All the lovely people will be staying in loft tomorrow! Probably the last time i'm gonna stay there...

Watching IN TIME later at lot 1 with the SNs later at 9++pm, heard that the movie is kinda awesomeeeee~! Yixuan's going with her friends tonight too. Probably eating dinner with tw and zn later first.

Shall update again tonight regarding the movie! && Tonight is the last night that i can train my veins to be bigger, tomorrow is blood donation day! :D

Oh ya~ found something funny...Student's life. HAHAS!

2011-11-03T11:54:00.002+08:00

The most touching line said by a good friend, " When i die, don't come near my body. It is because my hand may not be able to wipe your tears again... "

2011-10-31T23:23:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERY BOOOOOOODY!

Went to USS Halloween last night! It's like having a nightmare that you can't wake up from. Actually, so many of us went together, like 17 of us, not that scary. However when the MONSTERS decided to chase ONLY ME! I freak out like shiat! There's this time when 3 monsters chased after me... I totally went crazy man! I run around screaming like a mad lady! Hahas! && There's this time i'm holding hand with bayla and there's this retarded monster that jump out from the side and we were both shocked and fall to the ground.

The queue for everything takes super long! 100-145 mins adverage. Damn freaking long lar, i get bored and tired when queueing up. But we're different, NPOB! Hahas! We sang songs while queueing, shout cheers, do really retarded stuff. :D

&& HAUNTED HOUSE IS REALLY DAMN FREAKING SCARY! Haziq on my right and Jianhowe on my left. I'm like OMG OMG OMG OMG! I AM DAMN SCARED. Screaming like crazy. Came out of USS at about 1am and headed to st james food junction for some food to fill our stomach. Cabbed home with darling after that.

Photos uploaded by huaiyue, more photos will be uploaded soon. (: & You know what! I've got nightmare last night. It was freaking real and scary. STEWPIG ZOMBIES.

OH YA! I bought a new beanie :D I lub lub lub luuuuuuuuuub it a lot!

The weather is making me sick ):

2011-10-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting on my bed with my laptop here with me. In totally same position as the photo above. It's pouring outside right now, cold wind blowing... I'm glad i have my blanket with me.

I'm trying to sleep, but the voices in my head are too loud, and i'm remembering all these things that i've done. I turn to my side and face the wall, breathe slowly. Close my eyes, open them, close them once more. Now, i know i won't be able to sleep. I suppose this is why most people are insomniacs; the voice won't go away, the memories keep coming back, and people haunt them in darkness of the night. I turn the lights on, sit on the edge of my bed and cry. Just a little bit, just to make it easier to breathe. I turn the lights off and try to sleep again; it's going to be a long night.

2011-10-28T12:26:00.002+08:00

AWWWWWWWW... ... *heart melt*

I don't know if i mentioned before about me going to another interview not long ago, like on monday this week. Drew quite a few "cartoon", i kinda focus more on chinese horoscope so yea... Show you all okay! Some kinda fail hahas! Below below. (:

Okay, these are like still okay, i love the goat and the dragon (: The monkey look a little funny hahas! :D These 2 below are the ones i think totally FAIL.COM

The rabbit is like TOO FAT & the tiger looks like a cat instead. .___________. Okay, the end of sharing, shall update tonight again! (:

2011-10-27T15:05:00.001+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

& Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles, you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. ♥

2011-10-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

IT'S DEEVAAAPAALEE~! (:

Went out with this two girl girl. Liew and vonny. (: Walked around at far east, had our hair done, liew added purple and i added red. Vonny had both red and purple. So we're now equally the same hahas! :D Darling last min couldn't join us yesterday... so we went without her. OH YA! Now vonny have the same ring, 4 of us (Y)

Went to plaza singapura for ajisan (dinner) while waiting for bayla and co. to find us. Hahahas! They went to watch a movie at the cathay. TIME FOR FOOOOOD! Super yummmmmmmy one! :D

And as usual, when girls go toilet we camwhore! :D hahahas!

So the 8 of us headed down to bottle tree park,4 in each cab for prawning! It's a total waste of time but you'll know why later.

>

The stupid ain don't want take photo with me ): SADDDDED. Hahahas! But after that because it's too flooded with people, so we decided to go to safra for bowling. That's when my leg dropped into the small drain hole and it's kinda pain now. Luckily i can still walk properly hahas! :D

It has been raining and raining and raining. Thunderstorm everynight. SAD FACE. I didn't go school today. Doing my work at home. Thunderstorm-ing now as well. DOUBLE SAD FACE. )):

No ice cream today too. Because it's raining & it's cold & the thunderstorm & my leg pain & i'm not in school. Triple sad face. ))):

2011-10-25T11:48:00.002+08:00

Saw this somewhere & i thought it's super meaningful. So i wanted to share with you people here. Definitely worth your time reading. (: Enjoy...

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first,
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

2011-10-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

JIAN HOWE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION PHOTO IS UP!(:

23rd october 2011 Sunday

It's FRENDO's 21st birthday! Meet up with darling and liew in town, did some crazy shopping. Bought the same shoes as darling and we wore it straight away! (Y) Awesome. Waited for liew and we headed to do some coloured hair extension hahas! I think we seriously damn crazy yesterday. We just walked pass and say " feel like doing hor? " & we did! :D Red ones for both of them and mine's purple! NICEEEE.

Ate "lunch" at the wantan noodle shop and did our little birthday booklet for frendo. Sayang ain came and helped us out a little. Headed to Ion to meet up with the rest and bought frendo's presents there.

Bus down to "HAPPY AVENUE", Yes that's his address. Damn cute right! When i'm like year 1, thought he submitted a fake address. HAHAS! Everyone live there sure happy happy! Because it's happy avenue~ okay, i know lame. Hahas! :D

Had a really great celebration i can say! It's damn damn FUN FUN FUN FUN! :D It's going to be in his best memories throughout his whole life. Whole life only one time 21 years old. Hahas! (: Picked out SOME photos from facebook and share it with you guys here. ENJOY~

BIRTHDAY BOY MAKING HIS 21st BIRTHDAY WISHES! LOOK AT HIS FACE! DAMN FUNNY! GREEN CAMO, GLITTERS, LIP GLOSS.

WITH THE NPOB ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

One of frendo's task! " KISS A GUY FOR 21 SECONDS " (Y)

THIS PHOTO BELOW IS LIKE FREAKING NICE! GIRLS FTW (Y)

NICE RIGHT NICE RIGHT NICE RIGHT? LOOOOOOVES! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Today Went for internship interview, the lady boss doesn't even bother looking into our port folio. She said she don't have a problem hiring all the 5 of us. & we'll be like splited up into different places, museums, retail shop and stuff. I think we'll be doing more on sales and advertising instead. But oh well~ Get to talk to people, i don't really mind. (: She also added in saying that our working days and hours are different from normal office hours. We'll have 1 week, 2 days off, might need to work on weekends, 10am - 8pm.

That's all for today! Tomorrow's gonna be a better day. Gonna meet up with the SNs for chilling session at night. (Y)

2011-10-23T01:49:00.002+08:00

22nd October 2011 Saturday (:

Went out to celebrate jianhowe's birthday! Gave him a surprise under his void deck. Everyone's like super duper scared that he'll be angry because he don't usually have big celebration on his birthday. But he's not hahas! I know he loves us! :D

Headed down to TAM for bbq. Catching up with people i hasn't seen for months, lots and lots of memories when we introduce ourselves to the newer BFT batch that we're from BFT16. Those people who knew me and jewellcy introduce us as the Left and Right Speakers. Hahahas! (Y)

The photo above taken at TAM, that's supposed to be a low element but we always sit on it like it's a swing. HAHAS! (: I think this photo is kinda nice... LOVES.

2011-10-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

IT'S FRIDAY FRIDAY FIRDAY~! :D

Can't really sleep last night, both of my sisters slept together with my in my room & will be doing so for the next 1 week. Their room renovation. WE ALL CAN'T SLEEP! ): There's this creepy creepy feeling, was playing songs from my phone while we sleep. Alarm rang in the morning and i'm like... continue sleep because i'm freaking tired! It's like i just fall asleep and the alarm rang. .__________________.

Daddy drove me to school! Luckily uh! If not i'll be damn damn damn late for FYP. I was late today but still not that late, for like 15mins only. :P

Wayne and ShaoJune went out and came back with lots of snacks! The photos above is like my all time favourite when i'm in primary and secondary school! Forever secretly eating in class hahas! (Y) Damn long never eat this already.

Ate this grilled fish for lunch with FYP mates. I don't know whether i'm extremely hungry today, but the food look damn nice today so i decided to take a photo of it. HAHAS! :D ARE YOU HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?

CHIONG FYP CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG! Ah Liew came to meet me at around 3pm, left my lap top outside my studio with her and i went in for the maple tree compeition presentation. After that headed out to accompany her and when girls get together and we've got nothing better to do, we CAMWHORE! :D TAKE A LOOK AT THEM!

Aftermath, we went to atrium slack slack, since we still have some time before the clock strike 6pm. Chit chat about stuff, bought rootbeer vanilla float and mushroom soup to fill up our stomach a little. :D

NPOB TRAINING!
Freaking long never go running already && training! First training today, quite a lot of people, but i feel old ): No longer have the energy to go around screaming and shouting making new friends. I just want to stay one side and stay un-noticed. But, coming back to NPOB brings back memories...

YEA I KNOW! We camwhore damn muuuuuuuch! But it's been so long since the last time we wore our NPOB Tee, so we decided to take super a lot of photos! Hahas! :D && Finally get to meet up with bayla at KAP after training. Missed her, so glad to see her again today. (,:

I was telling ah liew " I feel how hilda victor feel last time when we were like year 2. The year 2s now are like us the last time." It's like passing down the flame of NPOB, let it continue to burn strong people! (:

TODAY IS TOTALLY AWESOME.

2011-10-20T22:41:00.002+08:00

MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE! ♥♥♥♥♥

TITANIC && LION KING! They're going to be 3D 3D 3D! WOOHOO~ Don't know when are they going to show up in singapore, are them even going to come to singapore? I confirm watch uh! Watch alone i also will go. Hahahas! My all time favourite movie/show. Watch watch watch also won't sian. && i'll still tear whenever i watch titanic... (Y)

FYP today, everybody chionging like crazy in the studio, i feel damn stress uh! But ai ya, just keep telling myself, last lap ler, last lap!! JIA YOU EVERYONE! :D

Found this photo somewhere in my hard disc, taken by my beloved cousin chuuu!(: We were like slacking along clark quay river side chilling. Long time since i last meet her, should plan to meet up soon as she's going to study at australia like next year feb. GONNA MISS HER SO MUCH! ):

Tomorrow's friday. Back to my beloved NPOB training days. :D

2011-10-19T15:41:00.003+08:00

LOVE THAT LAST...

对于爱情，其实越单纯越幸福。一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的. 经历的太多了，会麻木. 分离多了，会习惯. 换恋人多了，会比较. 到最后，你不会再相信爱情。

2011-10-18T19:59:00.002+08:00

HAVING THEM IN MY LIFE IS AWESOME...

I was about to like SLEEP and i heard my doorbell rang. Super noisy because the music just kept going and going... I'm in my room shouting out to my sister " GO AND SEE WHO IS IT " & i continue lying on my bed then suddenly i heard a familiar laughter. LOLS! CONFIRM IS AIN hahas!

Damn shocked uh! They came with happy meal in their hand. ♥ SO CUTE! They gave me the toy together with the meal hahas! A TORTISE! HAPPY MEAL MADNESS THESE DAYS! (:

I feel damn loved. Thanks to the verywhiteone (Haziq), sayang(Nurain) and yeye(huaiyue)!♥

2011-10-17T14:02:00.003+08:00

Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever recieve ALL of you, every single bit. After that, you learn better, but most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved. A piece that no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship and pain, Trail and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never et back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong... ...

Seriously, all the bastards on earth should just go die and get burn in hell! Girls are not a freaking toy that you can play for a few months and dump them after you get bored okay!

&& WHEN I THOUGHT NO ONE CARES... ...

You pop by and prove me wrong. I don't know how to express myself but thanks for being there girl... Even though you might not know what i'm going through all these time & the changes have been obvious and you still looooooves me! & ♥♥♥♥ I feel so loved now.

Sayang, i need time kay... (,:
Ps:// That's not my back *wink wink* hahahas!

2011-10-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

Went to lot 1 for dinner with sisters, Weikai & jianhong(jiayu's bf) tagged along too since all live near near. Hahas! NOODLE NOODLE NOODLE NOODLE! Damn nice noodle. :D

BUT I WANT TO COMPLAIN! LIM JIA JIN & LIM JIA YU! Make me eat my first meal of the day so LATTTTTE! D: Because they wanna sleep sleep sleep sleep first. I'm like super hungryyyyyy! So i ate chips first, because that's like the only thing i can find at home, with a yakult.
.___________________.

ANOTHER NEW IPHONE COVER! (:

Cute bah cute bah! I got a bad habit man! I just can't stop changing my iphone cover && I also change my screen protector back to the mirror type. Hahahas! Omg jiaxuan! Need to stop changing. But i can't help it, it's just tooooo CUTE! :D You can't deny it's cute right? Because it really is. Hahahas!

SIANNN! School tomorrow again. I seriously need to like FOCUSSSSS! D: Lagging behind like damn far away! ): Have been slacking and slacking.

MISS LIM JIA XUAN UH! YOU WANT TO GRADUATE ONE OR NOT?! Okay, tomorrow i shall do some serious work... (hope)Just another 4-5 weeks! TAHANNNN!

Sometimes i'm just thinking, i guess i'm never good enough. I can't even convince myself, how do i expect myself to convince you, right? ):

2011-10-16T17:43:00.002+08:00

Midnight Movie

Last night headed out with my NPOB 17th comm tee, Super long never wear already, feel damn good wearing it. NICE! :D Meet up with darling at lot 1 and we each bought a top at cotten on. Bought gongcha and some fried mushroom and chicken to fill our stomach for awhile because we didn't have our dinner.

Sat at the bus stop opp lot 1, waiting for weikai. Drove us to fetch zhanyu and clement and headed down to vivo city for the movie. ABDUCTION. Watching it for the 2nd time... Most of the time was using my phone, hahas! Sms, Lines, Twitter & Facebook.

Chill at Mac for awhile and went back home after that.

Sometimes i just feel easier to keep everything to myself than letting anyone else know. At least no one will be worried...

2011-10-15T18:56:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went out with clique to town, ate aston and just walk aroud around around. Shawn bought a top at " Welcome to Uniqlo" Hahas! Headed down to Louis Vuitton, Hard time choosing a wallet for my mum! Luckily benson and shawn came in with me, great help. :D

Bought a wallet for her, somewhat different from what she's using now & i hope she'll like it. Cost a bomb man! That's what happens when you have a mum who LOVES a brand, and it's not any other brand, it's LV. Placed it at zhengning's house for the time being till my mum's birthday. Gonna surprise her. 1/11/11 (NICE BIRTH DATE) (:

Bid goodbye to matt and his gf, the rest of us headed down to clark quay, met sebas and sebby and had dinner together while the rest of my clique went somewhere else to chill. Didn't ate much, don't really have any appetite, my mood like "BOOOOM" dropped to the ground from the sky.

JUST PARTY & FORGET EVERYTHING

Headed to rebel with my usual OB peeps. My ladies ♥ Jewellcy and Elaine, together with the guys, shawn, sebas, sebby, frendo, soonxiang, kay & kelvin.

HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH HIGH!
Get tired and went back home...

It's when everything ends & you realised everything is still there, it's just another short get away from life... can't run away forever.

2011-10-14T03:39:00.002+08:00

TRIP TO AVALON

Went to avalon on the Wednesday, Ladies night. The structure is kinda nice and appealing from the OUTSIDE because it's on water. The night view at marina bay sands is super WOW~! :D Pretty && the moon is super bright and round that day. Nice place to just chill out there... ...

The place is super empty that day, it's like having the whole dace floor to ourselves (so it's like kinda safe).

13th oct 2011

Went out with mummy and youngest sister to bugis. Bought clothings & walk around... Been a long time since i went shopping with them. (: I've got a fun mum because she's super funny. Love the clothes that i bought, or should i say, my mum bought them for me. Hahas! I didn't pay a cent. Love you mummy.

Headed to tiowee house for dinner. Chit chat here and there and i'm now here blogging while my hair's drying in progress. :D 4am now! Kinda tired. Shall sleep as soon as possible.

I wanna go gym with them later on at like 9am or 10am? D: But i really doubt i can wake up man. Everytime before the gym day sleep so late. LOL! Let's see if i can wake up later.

Gonna meet the lovely people that i hasn't seen for so long in the night later. Can't wait to see them. (:

2011-10-11T10:39:00.003+08:00

Pillar of Strength for almost 5 years and counting. Germin ♥

Finally get to meet up with my fav. sister! She came to my house yesterday, chill chill talk talk and take super lots of photos! :D I like it, when it's been so long but it still feels the same when we're together. Been through too much that it seems more than just 5 years. Hahas! (:

Happy meal for dinner with her, the toys are just ultra cute! :D Can't stop playing with it, the hippo will light up everytime the ball enter the mouth successfully & also it will play music when the ball enter the mouth 6 or 7 times. Hahas! But i forget to bring it to school today. Shall bring it tomorrow then. (:

Stomach cramp! Since the night before, couldn't the sleep the whole night! I turn left right cough cough left right cough cough. Check time, 1 am... 2am ... 4am... 6am... 7am... Get up and be ready for school. NO SLEEP UH! D:

I'm still awake now in school looking like that, half a zombie uh. Say hi to superwoman yea. ._____________. Caught the person behind me, fixing the air con. FYP room, aircon forever spoil. Cramp still aching my stomach, freaking pain uh! Someone remove my stomach please. Dying in school & it's raining! Freaking cold gosh! D:

Good news: Thursday and Friday no school! :D

There are just certain things in life that are better off unknown. Things you wish you never saw, never heard, or never even felt.

2011-09-28T21:01:00.001+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

2011-09-28T10:33:00.002+08:00

Went to eat steamboat at tiowee house last night, since house also no food. FUN FUN FUN! Debbie went as well, damn long never see her already. Gathering with them makes me forget about those shit that's on my mind for awhile, at least. They'll be going to genting highland this weekend till next tuesday, siannnnnnn.

Benson came back from thailand and bought some gift back! :D Singlets for the guys, i receieve a box of "milk" from him. Hahas! At first i thought it's some milk sweet or something but end up it's paper for notes hahas! So cute. (: THANKS BENSON!

Home after that couldn't fall asleep...Thunderstorm everynight, seriously last warning. Can't the sky just rain without the thunder and lightning? .__________.

People changes sometimes due to the environment they're in, stress, influences and stuff. To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment ever!

We can't be strong all the time. When I turn to you that's when I want to be weak for awhile. So please don't push me away because i don't go to people all the time.

I smile because i know i'm not the person in the worst situation on earth and i'm gonna be stronger than before. But please, don't forget that i'm still a soul with a heart full of emotions.

不哭不代表我没眼泪，不生气不代表我没脾气，我开心的笑着也不代表我没有伤心难过的时候. 我是人，是有感觉的. ♥

2011-09-20T22:24:00.005+08:00

We gotta run run run run run...

I AM NOT LATE TODAY! But waking up on time is freaking tiring, the whole period of time in design studio, i'm complaining. FREAKING TIRED UH! D: But still the day ended, richard(course manager) is not in school today hence we get to go earlier than usual, ended at around 4.30pm.

As planned, we(me, yixuan, jaye and shaojun) went for a run at the school track, 3 rounds today. Hahas! Felt great, shiok shiok get to exercise. Headed down to the market for dinner, but it's closed down for renovation i think. Hence we walked down further to al-azhar since their food also not bad. (:

Order 3 dish and rice, our dinner. Hahas! We then chit chat talk talk, eat eat. Time pass damn fast! If only during FYP time can pass that fast. Bused home after that. Super tired now, i think i'll fall asleep early tonight.

I L O V E M Y F R I E N D S ! (:

2011-09-19T22:15:00.002+08:00

I'm a bad bad bad bad bad girl today, but i can't help it yo! FYP is damn damn damn DAMN boring. Especially when the weather is so cooling, i just don't feel like stepping outta my house at all. Ate lunch with mummy and walked around yew tee mall, she bought me new jumper! :D

Went home and start web camming with yixuan (in school), chit chat and stuff. Kinda worried for her actually, i don't want her to go through the same pain all over again. That kinda pain, some take days, months, years, or forever to heal. Hope she'll settle her stuff soon~

Need to go school tomorrow, super sian but oh well, still a student after all. Same old sentence, i just can't wait to graduate.

问世间情为何物, 直教人生死相许♥

2011-09-18T22:46:00.002+08:00

Nobody wants to grow up i guess, fear of having more and more responsibility, but this is life isn't it. Living up to others' expectation, trying hard not to let our loved ones down, trying hard to also proof to others that what we're capable of. We're always always growing, learning more and more as we do, knowing more along the way.

19 this year, in a couple of months time, i'll be turning 20. 20 sounds like a scary number, gonna graduate from poly at the age of 20 (hopefully), i guess it's going to be another stage of my life.

SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY. I can prouldy say that i sleep my way through the weekends. Hahas! Doing work totally fail because i didn't do much. Seriously gotta start to FOCUS and do the right thing. Thinking of going to school tomorrow just turns me off like *click* OFF. Args! I can imagine myself kicking my ass outta bed tomorrow moring, and slacking in school with the rest of the mates.

I A M C R A V I N G F O R I C E C R E A M .
Can't wait for the meet up to have some icecream at MOF. It's been awhile since i've ate the yummmmmy ice cream there. I just can't wait. :D

Even thought FYP days are tough, but there's also other activities installed for me this week! Watching Johnny english tomorrow, Kboxing with FYP mates on friday and there's NPOB bbq session on Saturday. I CAN'T WAIT! At least something i'm looking forward to right? (:

People said i've changed so much. Well, here's the truth. I grew up.

2011-09-17T17:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday we recieved our result, && improvement for most of the core modules but i failed my last DPP module, seriously how can anyone fail space modeling .______. I can't find any reason for me to fail at all. Went to review my resutlts for $25 together with yixuan, but she didn't fail though. If the final result is still a fail, i got no choice but to graduate without diploma plus. SIANNNNN, ):

The whole of yesterday super no mood, reached school on time, sign in, put down my bags and went out because the whole studio talking about results... waited for yixuan while stoning outside since she's late. Before lunch time, chok super jek ak, keep adding salt to my wound, went to the toilet and T.T for awhile, yixuan came along, was trying to make myself laugh in the toilet, don't wanna go back with puffy eyes.

Luckily i've got a bunch of lovely people at fyp. They seriously made my day even though i wasn't in a good mood at all. Daddy fetch me home that day, wash up and went out to meet kay and company at clark quay. Was freaking late because the jam is super crazy!

Finally get to meet my darling jewellcy, vonny and liew. :D Miss them damn damn muuuuch! Also soonxiang, frendo, kay and shawn. Celebrated jewellcy and shawn's belated birthday and they bought drinks to chill on the bridge. Yvonny left earlier as she've got work today. Hahas! The rest of us enter rebel... ...

Put your hands in the air, put your hands in the air~! oh oh oh oh ohhhh~! 4.30am we came out and slack at the macdonal near by till 6am and cab home. Damn freaking tired, bathed and sleep till nearly 4pm today! Shiok~ not that tired already.

If you ever know that i missed you... ...

2011-09-15T21:57:00.003+08:00

Because there are times you feel like giving up...

FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP!
Everyday FYP damn tiring, going to school monday to friday 9am to 5.30pm is no joke. Seriously just feel like sleeping only. Especially when i can't think of anything at all. ROAR! D: Sitting inside the design studio wasting time, damn sian.

Decided to book loft 2 weeks later for the whole week with my FYP mates, at least we won't be late for attendance taking. && also someone to motivate us in the night to do our work instead of falling asleep. :D

For now, just have to tell myself and everyone that's going through the same shit to NOT GIVE UP! :D We've come so far, since year 1. Just a little more to go and we'll be wearing the graduation gown walking up the stage with the biggest smile on our face! :D HANG IN THERE PEOPLE!

Finish each day and be done with it. Tomorrow starts another day. Tomorrow marks a new day. So forget about today and just move forward. You can't have a better tomorrow if you don't stop thinking about yesterday. ♥

2011-09-14T23:23:00.004+08:00

I DID MY WORK TODAY!:D

Seriously, hasn't been doing much FYP in the fish tank, have been stoning... Thought of a lot ideas thought, but mostly can't work. Final idea finalized like FINALLY, shall start cadding tomorrow in school. ROAR! In school damn no feel to do anything. We have been singing " TODAY I DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING " in school everyday. SIANNNN!

The 6 of us bought new water bottle! Cute bah! :D Love love love love it damn muuuuch! We gotta start drinking water, everyone's getting sick. Need to be fit and healthy so we have the energy to chiong FYP! Everything eventually end. JIA YOU EVERYONE! :D

After school, 5.30pm meet up with weikai and he drove us (me and yixuan) for dinner at plaza singapura! :D Had a great great dinner with GFL and DUCK, had a great laugh too. Hahas!

I love love love love love their tissue! You know why? Cos it says that DOLPHIN ARE MORE CLEVER THAN HUMANS! :D MUAHAHAHAHAHAS! Okay can... ...

Gonna start chiong FYP CADDING tomorrow. Args! Sian to the maximum. I tell myself, tough time will pass, tough time will pass, it's gonna be over soon. JIA YOU PEOPLE! :D

Ps:// can't wait to use the new water bottle tomorrow. (:
GOOD NIGHT LOVELY HUMANS

2011-09-13T15:45:00.003+08:00

I WENT MALAYSIA TO VISIT MY GRAMPS!♥

I don't know why, everytime when i go back, i feel... so free! No stress, no workload, no nothing... BUT GOT A LOT MOSQUITO! I remember me and my sister jiayu waking up in the middle of the night like 3am to slap mosquitos because really super itchy! DAMN A LOT! Killed like 6-10 everyday.

Mum bought new specs for me & sister, kinda nice. Hahas! Her only motive is only for me not to wear contact lens anymore, because my eyes (right side especially) has been very very red for days, so yea... ... Gotta stop wearing them for awhile. *wink*

Honestly, i can't bear to leave malaysia everytime i go back, leaving two old people behind, grandpapa is very very very old already. D: Loaded the whole series of new huanzhugege back in malaysia for grandma to watch, i told her to watch slowly & by the time she watch finish the last eps, i'll be back to see her again. (:

AHHHHHHHHHHH! I DAMN DAMN DAMN MISS THEM! D:

Everyday 9-5.30 FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP! Some of the days, or should i say MOST of the days are not constructive at all~! Slacking slacking slacking, rotting rotting rotting and stoning stoning stoning! Damn sian, i can't wait to just finish FYP and go attachment. Oh wait, heard that attachment also sian... I JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GRADUATE FROM NGEE ANN! ._________________.

Yesteday, Mid-autumn festival. Every year this day i'll meet my secondary school mates and lit up some candles! :D This year is rather weird, seems like everyone has forgotten this festival already, no one plan to meet up. WEIRD! Kinda sad, Next year this timing, the guys would already be in NS.

They're planning to go genting highland this holiday, well... i do not have any holiday. SI EH SIAN! D: But nevermind, shall skipped the trip this time round. Can't wait for the graduation trip with them! :D

2011-09-01T11:11:00.002+08:00

Recently favourite photo hahas! With Ain's cap && Bayla's sunglass.

I think this photo with my darling damn nice :D

Hahahas! This photo kinda funny, so decided to share.

HARLOW HARLOW HARLOW EVERYBODY! I know i freaking long never update already, like more than a month. I didn't update for the whole of AUGUST! August is kinda crazy, Project deadlines and nearly fully packed with stuff.

Currently 'stucked' in the fishtank in the Design Studio. Need to find something special to do to keep me awake! So i thought of blogging for awhile to update on my life. hahas! :D

Wang an is already half way to japan already. Yesterday we had a farewell dinner with him at crystal jade located at holland village. Damn nice the xiao long bao!

We went to bukit timah plaza to play pool after that. (:

That was all about it for yesterday.

This is the desk i shared it with my GFL yixuan. So what we do everyday is to face the green 'wall' and do our FYP. Normally yixuan go outside && i'll get to use the whole table by myself hahas! :D Oh ya, i bought snacks to put it in the small cabinet behind us. (:

YAWNS! FREAKING TIRED... EYES CLOSING ANY MOMENT. If only there's bed provided in the fish tank hahas! :D Damn shiooooooooooooook! Alright, time to get back to work, shall blog more often now... (:

2011-07-22T15:26:00.002+08:00

Not only one, but many many people that i can go crazy with! :D They always make sure i go to bed smiling. (: Love these people like totally.

Damn damn damn damn bored in PIP class, everyone's doing their own usual stuff. Seriously, PIP is such a waste of time, 2 lesson per week, each lesson 4 hours, 1 week 8 hours! Hasn't really done A LOT of things for PIP. Don't have that motivationd yet to do anything, but of course, i know i gotta do something real soon. Can't drag anymore... ...

I wonder if this really exist? Tents on the tree, so beautiful and cool. I would like to try it someday if this really do exist. (: Able to see the sun rise, sun set and birds chirping, spending quality time with your love ones. :D

Gonna head for a CAMP later in the day, 6pm. 3Days 2Night Basic Training Camp 2011, gonna be a GL again! Not able to expose what's the programm like, but i'm definetly looking forward to it, however i know i'll be damn damn tired!

My goals for this camp:
What i want to create for the participants: Self Responsibility & Sense Of Urgency
What i want to create for myself: Be Firm

Ps:// I can't wait to take the camp tank top home! :D EXCITED!

Bye people who still reads my blog! Gonna be back on Sunday. (: Till then, Loves.

2011-07-22T00:50:00.003+08:00

I A M T I R E D O F E V E R Y T H I N G . S E R I O U S L Y . C A N I J U S T T A K E A B R E A K . ): I N E E D T O F I N D B A C K T H E O N E R E A S O N T H A T O N C E G A V E M E S T R E N G T H .

L E T M E F I N D I T , I N E E D I T .

2011-07-21T00:08:00.003+08:00

LOOOOOOOONG TIME NEVER UPDATE ALREADY. Was freaking freaking busy with stuff, yea with everything in life. HELL BUSY! Preparing reports and presentations.

WISP && HUMAN'S COMMUNICATION groupmates were A.W.E.S.O.M.E! :D They always make project a lot less boring and presentation a lot more fun! Even though most of us came from different courses and have to DIG and DUG for time to meet up for projects but we'll always make the effort to meet no matter how tired we are to get things done. Now that i've cleared this two modules i no longer have to go to school on tuesday but i bet i'll miss these humans, LOVE THEM ALL! :D

HARRY POTTER COMING TO AN END!

Went to catch the harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2 today with the secondary school clique. It's damn NICE NICE NICE! I cried when i know how much professor snape sacrifice to help harry potter behind his back and all the while i thought he's the bad bad bad guy! After the movie i suddenly feel empty, because the feeling is different, last time i'll always look forward to the next HP movie but this time round it's the last and no more. Hmmm... weird hahas!

But anyway, i've been watching harrypotter since the first time it went on screen. I'm only so young that time i don't even know if i understand the show but yea, they've all grown, like me, so fast. I've compile some of their photos from HP1 all the way till HP7. See the changes in them. :D

Well well well, it all ended. Nice series of harry potter. I think i shall start reading the book. Oh ya! My twilight series also read half way. Gosh! Gonna find some time to start reading. But i guess i can only do it after my FYP. SIANNNN

Seriously, no feel, no mood, not motivated for FYP. Can't wait for my internship to start! Perhaps i'll complain even more but for now, FYP IS HELL! ):

2011-07-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

THIS IS WHAT EXACTLY I'M FEELING!

I don't feel good... not at all && the stupid cramp is making it WORST. I feel like popping in ten thousand panadols and go to bed straight. I guess i'll wake up in a total different place after that. ._____________. Args! What's wrong with everything. I'm so damn confused that i don't even want to figure it out.

I'm going for my internship interview this coming tues, 10:30am at the design studio. The person is coming down to interview me. I'm super duper nervous, have to be in formal attire that day which means long sleeves shirt, black bandage skirt, heels, hair tied up, simple make up and not forgetting my portfolio. Hasn't complete sorting out the stuff in my portfolio yet & i heard that the company is located at bukit batok, kinda near my house as it's just a few MRT stops down. Hope i'll be able to pass the interview. *pray*

Gotta go and chiong my projects already. Sick and tired of meeting deadlines. D:

ROAR! BYE PEOPLE!
REMEMBER TO SMILE AT THE END OF THE DAY NOT MATTER HOW HARD IS IT. (:

2011-07-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

I'm not a good girl today. Came to school, ate fishball soup at makan place together with yileen and zoe. Decided to skipped lesson and we headed to the library. Seriously, last warning for myself, gotta stop skipping lessons. ): So we ended up talking about stuff and watched a movie. :D

Was watching a movie halfway then we get kicked out of the movie screening area because a group of guys wanted our space as they caught us not watching a M18 movie. (that area is only for M18 shows but we didn't notice) SERIOUSLY! I don't mind the person asking us to change location, but can't they be more polite? Stupid BOYS! Want the space cannot tell us? Go complain then hide inside the room, and when we walk pass, you guys still laugh! CAN'T THEY BE MORE OBVIOUS THAN THAT? LAUGH SHIT SERIOUSLY! We're not a joke & it's not funny. Zoe spammed them with vulgarities, she wanted to go back find them and scold, LOL. I seriously laughed. I meant, i don't wanna care about stupid boys, waste of my time. Lucky my tolerance level SUPER HIGH. :D

So anw, went running with zoe ONLY. The rest of the girls end up not coming. Jiajin came and so she stayed at the stairs to take care for our bag & took timing for our 2.4km run. I think 2.4 is not really a problem for me already. BUT BUT BUT! I can't even do a single incline pull up! I'm seriously so dead! D: WHY MY ARM NO STRENGTH! SAD.

Took my card and go exchange for the skeleton keychain, but it's random pick. I didn't get the one i wanted. SAD! I got PUDGE instead, it's a tortoise. So i need to re-collect the stickers again to exchange for it. Don't exchange how many times then can get DIEGO! ):

My new aim of the year, i wanna get a long haired Dachshund! && I've already thought of the name already! It will be called "HOTDOG LIM" Cute right! HAHAS! :D I can't wait to bring one home. I'll be having my attachment soon, my 2nd sister is gonna have her super long holiday after her o lvls. Therefore we're planning to chiong work and save up the money to get it. :D

Nothing related, something ramdom, but really, sometimes i really don't know what to do. Hais. D:

2011-07-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

Always there to make things a little less boring. :D Was webcamming with sister germin while rotting away in the clubhouse with bayla. Chit chated, looked at photos, sang songs with zhan yu while the rest of the comm were packing their stuff at the store.

Trip to jurong pasir laba camp today, for WISP. The weather is damn freaking warm. SERIOUSLY, THE SUN LAST WARNING! Make us all sweat like a OINK, PIG. But some of the stuff there are kinda interesting. They brought us around, looked at their bunks, sleeping area. Actually it's quite a cozy place, not as bad as i thought.

Their so call 24 hour field pack food wasn't that bad too, but i still rather cook maggie mee than eating from that green packet if i've got a choice. (: OH YA~! We explored their SMART CLASSROOM, it's damn freaking smart. All the technologies are like WOW! But the stuff they study like kinda hard though. hahas!

I GET TO TOUCH A GUN! NOT ONLY THAT! I GET TO FIRE IT TOO! EXCITED MUUUUUCH! Probably my first and last time. I asked for the name, it's called the SAW ( Section Automatic Weapon). Not bad right! Still can remember. :D

Overall was fun fun fun! except the wasted time waiting for the super-long-then-come bus & the freaking hot weather. Nice experience overall, kinda interesting. (:

No matter how tough life is, at the end of the day after a tiring fight with the world out there, please remember to smile because you deserve it. (: SMILES!

2011-07-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

WHY YOU SO STUPID? WHY?! 知道会痛为什么还要去啊! 根本就是自找的啊~白痴哦! I know i shouldn't, but i can't control myself. ITCHY HAND SERIOUSLY! ),:

Headed to school today, human's communication at 1pm. Lesson till 3pm and headed to jerald house for filming, project. The sun is freaking freaking warm, sweating like a pig when i walked to class today. Wanting to shoot the sun down with that magical bow & arrow... ... Filming was okay, kinda awesome. Managed to finish filming everything today and stomper(jerald's dog) is freaking HUGE & he's part of the film today too. (:

Wasn't feeling very good, web camming with sister germin, we both bad no fringe and our hair was tied into a bun. HAHAS! :D Chit chatting about stuff ended up counting our GPA. D: She said it will be good if we were to be in the same class like before, something along the line. I wanted to cry. T.T

I seriously have no idea, what i wanna be or do when i officially graduated from Ngee Ann Poly. What can i do? Continue studying then work? Work then study? Straight away work don't need study anymore? But what can i study? Study already work as what? If i want to study can go which uni with my GPA like shiat? Seriously, i don't even have a confirm answer to all the questions above. STRESS whenever i think about it, but no choice, gotta find time to think them through...

It's just a part of my life i gotta go through. I guess i'll have a hard time sleeping tonight. Again.

2011-07-04T01:39:00.002+08:00

Goodbye means forgetting? ):

2011-07-04T00:32:00.003+08:00

PS:// I HAVE MY BANGS BACK! (:

DELAYED PHOTOS! Taken in school on friday, presentation took damn long, so we decided to give ourselves a toilet break. hahas! OH YA! I love my new shoes bought at rock star! DAMN CHIO!♥♥♥ Gave NPOB a miss that day, it doesn't feel like a friday without NPOB && i sure miss those awesome people. :D Was supposed to go to malaysia if i ended school earlier, but when i reach home they're about to leave so i ended up in singapore. D: I MISS GRAMPS! Hope to go back soon.

You should know, this is life. I can't say that i'm perfectly fine now but i'm handling it well though... I'll be able to see the sun shine soon. :D

SMILE BECAUSE YOU LOOK AWESOME WITH THAT CURVE ON YOUR FACE! (:

2011-06-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

&& it all ended. It should have just ended the other time you decided to remove me from your life. Sometimes having second chances doesn't always mean happy ending, it's just another shot to end it right. I always thought everything in life is worth fighting for. Perhaps i'm wrong. It takes two hands to clap, perhaps it's for the best.

I may not gone where i intended to go, but i think i have ended up where i needed to be.

I'm letting everything go. No worries, this incident won't bring me down, i've gain strength from it and been strong. I know exactly who's there to pull me up and back me up when i'm struggling for air. Realizing i don't have the need to have many many many friends, it's more important for me to keep the true ones.

Dear friend,
I thank you for the memories we've created, every single moment and the lesson learnt. We'll only be stronger than before as an individual.
Goodbye stranger.

2011-06-21T23:30:00.003+08:00

It's always like this. Back to square one. I really don't know what's ahead of me, of us. Can i say that i'm afraid, afriad of all these unexpected things to happen one by one. Everything just happened, i didn't plan for it. I didn't expect things to turn out this way.

Perhaps that's the reason why we have to keep moving, if not we'll forever be stucked there, not knowing what will happen. This is the so called life i guess.

Currently, at the loft. YLC tomorrow, waiting for the mac delivery man to come. I don't know what time will the person come, it's already 11:36pm. Pray the person hurry hurry come. (:

I know i need to sleep tonight, at least a few hours, if not i'll KO tomorrow like last week. I'm freaking on duty! Args... Need to have enough sleep. Get everything outta my mind and BOOM! SLEEP! ._______.

whatever happened, happen.

2011-06-19T23:13:00.003+08:00

Came by this video, decided to share. Pause the back ground music that on the right>>>>>>>>>>>> Then play this video if you wanna hear.

You don't have to know the lyrics to understand the song. You can feel it with your heart.♥

He's strong, Mongolian boys don't weep easily but i can see it in his eyes. How much, he actually misses his parents. God bless him. (:

It's like his voice can travel across the sky... so beautiful. (,:

2011-06-19T17:04:00.003+08:00

The main reason why a daughter needs a dad is to show her that not all the boys are like the ones who hurt her. ♥ HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL THE PAPA AROUND THE WORLD!

Daddy, I knew you'll never get to see this! But i think i'm not ready to say it in your face, i love you dad. But if you can please control your temper a little everytime you gets angry, i'll love you more. HAHAS!(:

Thanks daddy and mummy for making this awesome home for us, me and sisters. I know it's hard, handling kids/childrens like us but trust me, we're not that bad afterall hahas!SMILES! :D && Thanks for trusting me while i'm out late, thanks for bearing with my temper when i'm not in the mood, thanks for your understanding when i just want to be alone. (:

Headed out for family dinner. Vegetarian yo! :D

Oh ya, there's photo of my new hair cut. Not a lot of different but at least it's not STRAIGHT anymore. I might want to cut back bangs if i don't get used to it. (:

2011-06-18T17:47:00.003+08:00

VERY LOOOOOOONG never update already huh, kinda busy busy && lazy to update because there's super a lot of photos! :D I've already combined most of the photos!

14th - 15th june, YLC

The Kismis Adventure Park, so beautiful in the morning right! But i looked like a zombie because i didn't really sleep a wink the night before. Was watching movie with DEB and Bay in the loft! "DEAR FRIENDS" DAMN AWESOME SHOW! Got time go watch okay! (:

Morning shift, assigned to be the PARAFAN CO. So the whole morning i was alone up there at this corner, dispatching people down the parafan. Actually, it gets kinda tired needing to say the same thing over and over again.

" Hi, what's your name? cindy? okay cindy, don't be scare! You're going to be just fine. Trust me okay! okay step into the yellow box, yea over there, may i have both of your hand holding on to this cushion part, yea here. So when i count to 3 you just have to take one step out and you'll be down already. -scare scream and saying they're scare- okay, take one deep breathe in, okay if you're scare don't look down anymore, just look far, see over there... very beautiful right? okay...."

But i guess i just have to be paitient with them, i'm once afraid of heights too! Jian long was the one dispatching me, i guess i took around 20mins to jump of that stupid thing. LOLS! SO I SHALL BE GOOD && NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT IT ANYMORE HAHAS! :D

It rained half way through the activities, so we moved on to indoor sports hall for indoor activities, wet weather plans. MY TURN TO SLACK YO! Hahas! Was super tired so i KO-ed on the floor at the side of the hall while the activities is still on. >.< A bit unglam, but who cares! :P

Afternoon session, back to kismis adventure park, was assigned to do LOW-Element Co this time round, so i walk round and round and round checking and checking. && the day eventually end. LOOOOOOOOOONG day hur, headed back to loft for debrief.

I STILL CAN'T ACCEPT THE FACT THAT MR CHUA ACTUALLY CALL ME BY " MIAN MIAN MIAN " LOLS! SERIOUSLY OMG. .___________.

Yesterday went to work at SAFTI MI, selling bubble tea and fruits/juice too! (: I was complaining that i'm gonna fall asleep every now and then, because me and my sisters went KBOX-ING the night before till 1am. HOW COOL WAS THAT! :D TOOK LOTS OF RETARDED PHOTOS BECAUSE WE WERE TOO BORED. HAHAS! && Our phone reception are like ON, OFF, ON, OFF... Something to entertain ourselves. (:

TODAY TODAY TODAY TODAY TODAY TODAY IS SATURDAY!
Heading out to cut my hair soon, jiayu is already at yew tee point waiting for me, guilty much! Then go down to BPP to have dinner with the SNs (: Movie marathon tonight again! WOOHOO~ I hope it's not another horror. :D

Did i say about how much i loved this photo, it shows that i've got a friend like awwwww... (: That's my Darling, Jewellcy.

2011-06-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

It's time like this, i wanna be alone, by myself, without any body else. When the surrounding is so still and quiet that you can only hear your own heart beat, that's when i don't have to hold back my tears but to let them flow freely.

Like i say, it's okay to NOT BE STRONG and BREAKDOWN at times, just know when to get back up because life goes on no matter what. && I know it... ... things are never gonna change even how much i wanted it to.

I'm still gonna smile everyday, laugh my lungs out as much as possible. But spare me the night... because that's when i don't wanna hold back myself and hide anymore. You have to know, i can't be strong 24/7...

when faced with two choices, simply toss a coin. It works, not because it settles the question for you, but because in the brief moment when the coin is in the air you suddenly know what you're hoping for.

By the way, i'm sleeping in the loft tonight, okay not sure whether i'm able to sleep but then, tomorrow's a long long day...

2011-06-13T02:35:00.002+08:00

Who loves goodbyes? I believe few... Personally, i hated it the most. I hate it when people are leaving, when i know it's gonna be very loooooong till i get to see the person.

Talked to my uncle today, he's actually kinda young like around 30 this year? His son will be 1 year old in july, by now he should be learning how to walk. One sentence that he said, it pierce through my heart like OUCH! "too bad, i'll never get to see him walk." ): I actually feel, the pain inside him even though he put on a smile on his face. He's strong... ...

Restart button, starting everything fresh. It has already started, no point turning back now i guess... ... just gonna harden my heart a little and hang in there.

2011-06-12T18:05:00.002+08:00

11.6.2011 SAT (:

Woke up kinda late yesterday, wash up and headed out to friend's BBQ gathering. Daddy drove me there, labardor park. Super wulu sia! Wasn't really interacting with the people there, not very close with most of them. So i just stand by the sea side, letting the wind blow through my hair. Chit chat with one of my friend there (the closest one). He drove me out to the MRT station after that, THANKS MUUUUCH! (:

MRT && LRT down to fajar, headed to tiowee house. Waited for alex (birthday boy) to come, down to macdonal for supper/dinner. Feels good talking to them...SUPER FUNNY! When the clock strikes 12am, we all sang birthday song for him, everyone around us is expecting a cake or something but we don't have hahas! Waited for shawn to come and headed back up to celebrate alex's birthday.

OH YA! I SAW VONNY ON THE WAY TO MACDONAL! (: MISSED HER! Oh ya, Ah liew and shawn now also fly go hongkong already. Hope they will have many many many fun! :D I wonder when will be my first time taking the plane...

Stayed at tiowee house with the rest till kinda late, was watching movie, some kinda horror. Freaking scary. Cabbed home with the rest after that.

I couldn't fall asleep the whole night. Sitting on the swing together with my soft toy, i decided to watch the sun rise by the window. It's kinda pretty yea...

&& i finally stopped crying and headed to bed, knowing everything is going to be different when i wake up.

TODAY TODAY TODAY! I WOKE UP SUPER DUPER LATE! Because i slept late too... ... Called germin sister today, talked about stuff and uploaded the photos in facebook.

Going to eat dinner with my family tonight! So long since the last time man! Gonna catch pirates for the 2nd time as weikai can't find any soul that hasn't watch it before, so i shall be a good friend. (:

I hope i'll be able to control my tears tonight.

2011-06-11T04:03:00.002+08:00

JUNE 8 2011 WENT TO LASELLE FOR THE EXHIBITION! Here are the photos!:D

Today woke up, rushed my report for the laselle exhibition, rushed and headed out to raffles city. Meet up with the rest, been a loooooooong time since i last saw them all. Headed to the 'old market' or we call it 'lao pak sak' for dinner.

Bought a cake that look like a SAI, yea shit! hahas! Sunflowers and stuff for hidayah! She's working nearby and it's her birthday! Poor girl, working whole day on her birthday. ): I hope we did cheer her up a little. LOVE YOU GIRL! HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

Some went home and some stayed, headed to catch the movie X-MEN, midnight. DAMN NICE :D I won't mind watching it again actually. (: Headed home after that. Damn damn tired now after editing all those photos above. But well, i always smile looking at photos... Gonna sleep soon i guess. BBQ tomorrow && a birthday party at night.

"i'll be okay" Yes i said it. I WILL BE OKAY! If this is what you've always been waiting for me to say. Yes i won't DIE having to lose any of you. Life goes on...

2011-06-09T03:52:00.005+08:00

TODAY(8.6.2011) I RAN 5KM WITH MY SISTER JIAYU! GOODJOB!

I woke up kinda late today, 2pm i guess. Went to yew tee macdonal to meet wh, ate MCFLURRY! He ate some weird ice cream with super thick chocolate, peanuts and a lot of round round choco with different fillings inside it. WEIRD HUH~ Oh well, i still love mcflurry. (:

Headed to RUN RUN RUN RUN RUN~! 5km in total. AWESOME! Should run more! Because the feeling damn shiok when i can run without stopping. :D ACHIEVEMENT! Should increase the distance. Award ourseleves with ICE CREAM!♥♥♥♥

Bathed and headed out again! To meet zhanyu & Shawn! Pool-ed at mambo located at Bukit timah plaza. (: Saw noel and galvin too! Played awhile and moved to KAP. Chit chat-ed there... till kinda LATE. Which explains why i'm updating at this timing, 4.06am! ROAR I NEED TO SLEEP SOON!

I wonder what will i be doing tomorrow! Wanna watch some drama or some movie on teevee or something. Shall KBOX soon too, i wanna SING! La La La La, ELMO SONG!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE! LOVE YOU!

2011-06-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

I WANT A GET-AWAY-TRIP. But, i don't know where to go and who to go with. Perhaps i shall go back to malaysia all by myself to visit the gramps. Miss them dearly. Shall see how things goes... ...

Finally. It's over! Yea, CT is over for me. 3 papers in total. Friday, Monday and Tuesday! Today's paper, or you can say yesterday paper because it's pass midnight already, REVITS! I find it still okay, not that hard. Luckily i get to practice it with the rest of the people before the test. NOT SCARED! :P

Headed to LASELLE to visit their exhibition, compulsary because we have to do a report regarding that. Their product design is not WOW but still okay but i'm totally amazed by their interior designs, some of the buildings are so A.W.E.S.O.M.E! && I swear i can tell that they took damn freaking long to make the model out. Their fashion design! If they're on sale i wouldn't mind paying for them. SO PRETTY! Their dresses & jackets. But oh well, they're on display only! ):

So we were all saying that we entered the wrong course, because we were all more interested in the rest of the designs rather than PRODUCT DESIGN. Big big problem, but we're in year 3 already, SO JUST HANG IN THERE! (: Can't wait to graduate!

HOOOOR-LEEEE-DAAAAE! But doesn't feels like one. I might be MORE free than usual, but still there's projects, assignments and most importanly my FYP. ROAR! But i guess i shall give myself breaks to enjoy before the no-life-chiong-work period starts.

Will be running with my sister in the evening later on. Can't wait! I WANNA RUN RUN~ RUN RUN RUN! :D I don't know since when i started to run, but i can confirm it's NPOB! Hahas! When i run, i don't think of anything except WATER & DON'T GIVE UP. WANNA RUN 10KM WITHOUT STOPPING! Gonna train my determination! :D

Everynight, i fight the thoughts to sleep.
GOODNIGHT WORLD, i love you.

2011-06-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

YES I NEED TO CHECK MY EYES! I guess it's the increasing of degrees, especially my right eye. Can't possibly be the decrease in degree right? I hope it doesn't go up too high. I envy those with Perfect eye sight.

Super eye straining when i'm practicing on revit today. Facing the lap top staring into every small details on the program for hours is no joke, gosh! BURNING EYES! No wonder the increases in degree i guess. BLAME REVIT hahas! :D

SUCCESSFUL studying session at Grace's house today. 6 of us trying to understand how revit works in every single way. WE DID IT! Happygirl92.com seriouslly. Spend like another hour or so chit chatting at the dinning table with some kuey her mum bought for us. (: Talking about the past, hmmm... sensitive topic but oh well, that's where we all came from isn't it.

Even though everyday we fought hard for what we want, but eventually we might not get to the place we intially wanted to go. However, life goes on and that's something we can't stop. We might not like where we are now, but we still have to move on from here. I believe, as long as we're still alive, we're still able to do something about it. Somethings, unchangeable but we can accept them and you know, perhaps look at them at a more positive view.

I know and i understand totally how it feels when even though you've been positive about things but they'll all turn around and look at you in the face at night when you're on your bed. Does that happens to you? You keep telling yourself, it's alright, i'm gonna stay strong and i can do it. But when no one is around, there's no reason to stay strong and sometimes i feel, it's okay to just breakdown.

I don't like to bother anyone when i know they have their own stuff to handle as well, i mean who doesn't? Everyone got their own ups and downs and everyone is also trying to sort their stuff out and handle them. I feel like i'm a burden sometimes, bringing troubles to my friends. Not one time, not two times but many many times. But i'm still glad they're still by my side even though i didn't call for them.

STAY STRONG AND JUST SMILE. :D I know i'm not handling the worst issue ever on earth, and i believe there're worse. At least i'm all good and fine, got a family, have friends. That's all i need i guess, should appreciate everything good in life.

2011-06-05T20:16:00.003+08:00

Can't wait! Seriously... ... can't wait till CT is over.

I really think i'll flunk tomorrow's paper. I don't understand a single thing! Have been studying since friday night! Circuits! I hope Mr michael from ESD2 is still my lecturer, he've got more patient with me. I can take hours just to understand how one circuit works. ): Brain not processing well to anything related to calculations i swear.

What's worst, i'm studying home, supposed to be meeting up with friends though, it was canceled. I don't even know who to ask now. Wait, i don't even have the motivation to do so. ROAR! BUT I KNOW I MUST AND WILL STUDY. Have been studying, just that the now-very-weak brain cells are not absorbing, can't understand.

Well, shall ask my friends later on. Shall take a break. Relax.

2011-06-04T21:25:00.003+08:00

Just submited my resume for local internship. Digging out all my past achievements and stuff like that. Read the testimonial typed by all time favourite english teacher in zhenghua all over again && also the letter she wrote for 4E2 and 4E3. SO-FEEL-LIKE-GOING-BACK.

Hmmm... Keying my grades wasn't a very nice process, hate it but oh well, there's nothing i can do about it now. I wonder where will i end up at. Hmmm... Shall not care about it for the time being though.

Shall take some time during the holiday and plan about my future? BAHH! I doubt i'll have extra time to do all this personal stuff. PROJECTS, FYPS AND ASSIGNMENTS! T.T

COMMON TEST ON MON FOR SPD. Still studying. CHIONG UH~!
COMMON TEST ON TUES FOR REIVIT. HAVEN PRACTICE.

'HOLIDAY' OFFICIALLY STARTING ON WEDNESDAY FOR ME! :D
JIA YOU EVERYBODY! It'll all end within next week!

2011-06-03T23:17:00.003+08:00

Dragged myself outta my bed this morning, like SERIOUSLY. I don't even feel like waking up! Freaking tired but i've got a TEST to take at 9am! Rushed in and out of the toilet getting ready for school. As usual, Oversized Tee-shirts && a FBT shorts along with my pink crocs! Super comfy attire for school, especially when i don't have to mood to dress up at all.

10mins late but the test just started when i enter the classroom so i'm kinda lucky actually. MINDBLOCKAGE.COM.SG/SCREWTESTPAPER Okay, i think i didn't really flunked it. Just the irritating feeling you get when you OBVIOUSLY know you CONFIRM got study about this and read about it but you just can't remember what the answers are. && You sit there staring into space forcing every single brain juice to remember them. SUCH A TORTURE.

Whole class headed to al-zhar for lunch as we had a really long break. SO LOOOOOONG since the whole class came together and eat. Although we didn't eat at the same table but it somehow felt comforting, feeling like we're back to year 1. (:

4 hours of PIP is no joke when what you ever wish for is YOUR BED. But still survived it, FYP FYP FYP FYP FYP! Tell me you're not that hard afterall.

Met up with zhengning, tiowee & shawn for dinner at lot1. Had MOF ice-cream, DAMN NICE! Chit chatting session with them is always great. Saw other secondary school friends there too, so long since i last saw them, didn't change much though. (:

LOCAL INTERNSHIP! Please send me to somewhere good. Don't wanna end up at some weirdo companies doing weird stuff. & YA! I NEED SLEEP!

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE WHO STILL READS MY BLOG, LOVE YOU. (:

Dear memories,

I just hope you will all be worth remembering.
You know how i hate getting flashbacks
that gives me feelings that i've made
many mistakes in the past and i find it hard
to take those away.
You're the kind of thing that's
permanent and can't be taken away easily.
But still i'm happy to have you,
for you're the thing that's kind of giving me life
and proves that i'm human.

Love,
Me

2011-06-02T18:14:00.003+08:00

Whenever i study i feel like sleeping! Okay no! Actually i feel sleepy almost all the time during school period. What's WORST is that this module that i'm currently studying do not have a book! It's all from the powerpoint slides, MY EYES~ GOSH! FIRE BURNING ON THE DANCE FLOOR~ Okay, lame... ... ... ...

I can stay up till as late as 4am in the morning for drama or for reading my favourite story book but NOT STUDYING, why why why?! ARGS! NEED TO FOCUS. JIAXUAN JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU! SELF MOTIVATION! :D

In the library now, taking a break from all the mind straining informations that's stil kinda processing in my brain. -weird sound coming out from my stomach- OH YES! I'M HUNGRY! .____________.

DFM TEST TOMORROW PEOPLE! WE CAN DO IT! :D
-positive positive positive positive-

2011-06-01T23:08:00.005+08:00

Long time since i last updated in this rotting blog. Year 3 is like WOW! I mean it's so much different as compared to the previous years. Everything is fully packed and sometimes i find it hard to just take a break from all the work, still manageable, trying and learning to cope. Everyone's is trying to catch up from one another, i'm glad we pulled each other along making sure everyone's on track.

It hurts, when people just say you in the face, "Ai ya, you don't need compare, you never do work one". Hello, i'm a freaking human with a heart with allows me to have feelings. Even though you might just say it out of randomness and ends it with a smile saying 'just joking', I.T.S.T.I.L.L.H.U.R.T.S ALOT. Can think of my feelings?

I didn't want all these, I know it might be partly my fault, Showing you guys the 'not anxious' side of me. I'm not used to showing my feelings on my face to every single person i know. I like to be the happy kid everyone knows & i enjoy being one, but that doesn't mean i don't have my down times.

Sometimes i think i'm like the worst human you can ever know on earth. The number of people i hurt... If karma comes after me i could have been dead. I hate it, i don't like hurting people, especially the people i treasure and cherish. But i'm always left with no other better options. Why always like that? I'm not blaming the rest neither i can blame myself. I'm just...tired of all these.

Once again, i'm gonna repeat because this is important, I DO HAVE FEELINGS. I do feel sad when i see my friends upset. I can't deny this, i'm a super emotional person, FULL OF THEM IN ME. ( But still staying strong ) I don't feel good having to hurt a friend, really, it's sucks. && When you have to tell yourself they're going to be okay but whatever you see just tells you, they're not. TERRIBLE FEELING, when you still have to act as if they're fine and good and i'm actually not bothered by it at all.

SERIOUSLY. Why must things be this complicated now? All i ever wanted is just for everyone around me to be happy. I don't mind if i'm sad but i want ALL OF YOU, YOU, YOU AND YOU TO BE HAPPY! Because the smile and laughter around me will influence me too. I don't wanna have to lose anyone, because everyone's important to me. Never liked the feeling of having to lose something or someone...

I still believe, in the end everything's gonna be alright. If it's not, it's not the end yet & i'll wait patiently for it.

2011-04-24T23:02:00.004+08:00

HARLOW PEOPLE! LET'S SEE WHAT I'VE DONE FOR THE WHOLE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL. (:

I can just say that i'm still in the SUPER HIGH HOLIDAY MOOD! Hahas! Some lessons can be kinda boring but I SURVIVED THEM ALL (First week) Hahas! :D Did lots of stupid things when i'm real bored in class. Help out for CCA fiesta as well && also Mass introduction of the ngee ann adventure club. Nothing much for the first week, just that lecturers have been super KIASU! All the projects and assignments are pilling up. :l

Thurs night went over to tio wee house for matt birthday celebration. Time to catch up with secondary school friends. (: Felt great! Group photos with jinwah, have to wait for him to upload them. Had dinner with some of them on Friday as well, the chit chat session is awesome... talking about the past, interesting hahas! (Y)

SAT! 23.4.11 My daddy's birthday! I swear i've got the cutest dad on earth! Hahas! Bought him a new addidas shirt. Love you dad.

VERY CUTE BAH? (: Bought this last night while i'm out with jewel&stacey. We had a blast last night. Let's wait for stacey to upload the photos then i'll post again. :D

PS:// I hasn't done any work this weekend! ): Time to chiong next week.

2011-04-12T22:26:00.004+08:00

Awwwwww... ... I can kinda feel the 'ouch-ness' for the man && the sweetness of their love. We, humans do die, don't we? ):

I understand that my blog has been rotting. Don't worry, i just spend some time clearing the weeds. :D I'm here again to update on my life! ARE YOU EXCITED?! Okay i know lame, but ai ya! A bit bored... hahas!

Holiday say long not very long, say short also not very short. Previously worked under TAM for HGSS. Then rot awhile, went malaysia visit gramps. It's nice to see them again! I don't know when is the next time i'll be free to go back again. Help out my aunt at her shop in SAFTI MI, selling bubble tea and fruit juices. Now i know that the pearl is actually tastless, it need to be soak in honey to be sweet. :D

Well, holiday is coming to an end soon. && I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO FEEL TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL! ): I don't miss the chiong-ing project days, think of it also scared. But whatever it is, i know i still have to. Hahas! Last year to go! JIA YOU EVERYONE! :D

Oh ya! Do you know that i dyed my hair? :D I first dyed it in malaysia. I dyed blue but ended up green. So i came back singapore with green hair. )): So today i went to re-dye it. :D Now it's black blue. WOOHOO! Finally get rid of the green hair. (:

Well... I'm also sick for quite some time. It sucks! I mean, i can't eat this and that, can't do this and that... sian muuuuuuch! ): Gotta recover before sat! So that i can fully enjoy myself at sentosa with the people. :D

That's for now. I promise to update more often alright! MISS ME (:

2011-03-15T17:56:00.001+08:00

#PRAYFORJAPAN
(off the background music first, bottom right)

2011-03-15T00:29:00.002+08:00

POLKA DOTS! (:
When i got nothing much to do. Blue-yellow and light-dark-pink.

Super duper HUNGRY but got no food. Yes, i'm lazy to buy any. Why not you buy for me hur? Hahas! :P

2011-03-14T02:45:00.002+08:00

Letting go & moving on. Honestly, i felt cheated i don't know why. But whatever it is, i guess i better care less because it's not going to work. I'll give you my blessing as long as you're following your heart.

I'll be okay. Just let me cry for tonight and you shall wait and see. I'll be smiling and laughing under the sun again. (:

Ps:// Believe & trust.

2011-03-12T15:09:00.004+08:00

Feel the fear! Do it anyway! (:
It's like you're so afraid you won't even want to take the first step. However, if you wanna move on, you got to! The first step is always tough but don't ever forget, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There's lovely people around you that's willing to support you through the hard times.♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

IAMBORED.COM.SG
I wanted to bathe but mummy is using the toilet, so because i got nothing to do i decided to do something silly. Hahas! :D Nothing to do what! (Y)&& Yes i realized my bangs super LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG! I'm gonna cut it soon, maybe later or tomorrow. See how bah! (:

Will be going out later on, with jewellcy. Darling is flying off tomorrow for 2 weeks. I'm so going to miss her i swear. Luckily it's not 2 months or 2 years.

2011-03-12T00:31:00.002+08:00

11/03/2011

An 8.9-magnitude earthquake rocked northeast japan on Friday afternoon local time, prompting a tsunami that sent 30-foot waves ashore along the country's northeast coast. The tsunami hit northeast japan, reaching as much as three miles inland. Hundreds are believed to be dead.

I really really can't imagine. ): While i'm typing this post there's actually people running for their life or perhaps trying hard to survive this disaster in japan NOW.

I'm like staring in the sky just now and you know what, we share the same sky. Wherever you are... when we lift our head up, we'll be looking at the same piece of sky. We're all human beings, && we're only this small compared to the earth. I can tell how weak and how small our life is.

What's going to happen tomorrow, i don't know. I can't make every single seconds in my life worth while because there's time whereby i just sit infront of the tv to watch some dramas, sit infront of the lap top to be online & that's all. But one thing for sure! I don't wanna die without letting the people i love the most know that i love them a lot.

There's news or rumors saying that the tsunami will hit Singapore at 6:49am today. True or not i don't know but i guess i'll be sleeping soundly in my pink pajamas, hugging my soft toys, covering a blanket & playing in my lalaland.

Whatever it is. People in Japan, Hang in there alright! I hope it will be OVER soon!

2011-03-06T09:19:00.001+08:00

Who wants to recall their childhood with me? (:

2011-03-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Yeaps, i'm back from KOTA TINGGI on sunday. Didn't update because i was busy studying for my one and only paper that ended just yesterday. Don't really have a good feeling for it but... ... Oh well, it's all over. No point crying over spilled milk right. So i shall just enjoy my holiday now.

HOOOR-LEE-DAA-EE! :D
Alright, i think i shall blog about my trip to KotaTinggi together with hougang secondary. The trip was AWESOME! You know what, we saw FIREFLY! Super chio, the trees are like christmas trees. I can just sit on the boat and stone there watching those trees full of fireflies for hours if they let me. (: Besides that, there's paintball and waterfall as well. FUN FUN FUN FUN! Of course must have fun people, my class (Y). AWESOME BUNCH OF PEOPLE! :D

TRAINER LYE LEADING THE TRAINING FOR 2 DAYS. (:

EARLY IN THE MORNING DOING REFLECTION (JOURNAL WRITTING) BY THE WATER. (Y)

THE WATERFALL AREA! (: I WENT DOWN TO JOIN THEM AFTER TAKING ALL THESE PHOTOS. THE WATER IS FREAKING ICY COLD! && THE STONES BELOW DAMN SLIPPERY, LUCKILY GOT HELPFUL PEOPLE THAT HELP ME DOWN, IF NOT I GUESS I'LL COME BACK WITH BLUEBLACKS ALL OVER. HAHAS! WATER FALL WAS FUN! :D

THEY WENT FOR PAINTBALL 'CHALLENGE' AS WELL. FIRST TIME! IT LOOKS FUN BUT IT HURTS AS MUCH. MOST OF THEM CAME BACK WITH MINOR SCRATCHES. THE POWER OF PAINTBALL. -OUCH- BUT OVERALL THEY STILL THINK IT'S FUN HAHAS! (:

SL DAY! (: WE WENT TO HELP OUT IN THIS VILLAGE, CLEAR THE PLACE, HELP IN MAKING KUEY, HELP TO 'RENEW' THE LIBRARY. MY CLASS WENT TO VISIT THE VILLAGERS FIRST THEN CLEAR THE PLACE. HAD FUN HELPING, ALTHOUGH THE SUN FREAKING HOT! :D THEY TOOK A WHOLE SCHOOL PHOTO INSIDE THE CC ITSELF BEFORE LEAVING.

THAT NIGHT EVERYONE HAD FUN! WE DANCE, SING, PLAY AND CHITCHAT! (: RELAXING NIGHT FOR EVERYONE I GUESS.

THIS IS THE LAST SCHOOL PHOTO THEY TOOK BEFORE WE LEAVE KOTA TINGGI WATERFALL RESORT ON THE 4th DAY. (:

WE WENT TO JUSCO ON WAY BACK TO SINGAPORE, SPEND LIKE NEAR 2 HOURS THERE. THEY'RE SO SWEET. (: BOUGHT ME ROSE, BEAR AND SMILEY DONUT. ♥♥♥ THE ROSE IS STILL IN THE WATER BOTTLE && THE BEAR IS WITH ME NOW! HAHAS! :D IT'S PINK! FAVOURITE COLOUR.

Of course besides playing, having fun. Most importanly is to make this trip worth while. To trust and to believe. What's yours? (: Remember, your journey doesn't end when the camp ended, it has only just begin! Go for what you really wanted and never give up till you get it in your hands! :D

2011-02-23T23:47:00.004+08:00

Harlow people! It's early in the morning. Going 12am now and I guess I'll sleep right after I blog this post. (: YES! I NEED SLEEP. So I can have energy later on!

I'm currently lying on a bed... No no no, not my bed. Hahas! I'm at TAM and in one of the sleeping room with Sebas and Zhanyu and also trainer Lye next door. :D We're all going to have an awesome and exciting trip later on to Kota Tinggi. I'm so so so looking forward to it. I bet it's going to be so so so fruitful for the students, me and the rest of the team. :D

Yeaps! So I will only be back on Sunday. Won't be online for yea, 4 days. :D Alright! Gotta sleep soon, like now? Yea... NOW! Luckily someone brought jacket or windbreaker or whatever they call it. I didn't bring mine. -draw circles- ): freaking cold now!

Goodnight lovely humans! I'll miss you, you and you!
I'll be back. (:

Ps:// Nopes, I didn't bring my lap top along. It's my iPhone. :P

2011-02-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

Have been SUPER DUPER busy with school for the past few weeks. All those sleepless nights and rushing all the work before deadlines. EXCITING & EXHAUSTING, mostly TIRING. Sorry to those people who i complained and nagged at, this is just me, J.I.A.X.U.A.N. HAHAS!

BUT BUT BUT! Seriously i know i'm not going to DIE doing all this work && i know i will not QUIT SCHOOL just because of this... ... but i just want to complain about it because i feel good talking it out. I got another year to go, JUST BEAR WITH ME OKAY! :D

I'm like a bird now! FREE! :D I have nothing much to worry about, except for ESD for now. It will be over and done with after 2nd of MARCH! I CAN'T WAIT! :D I told me lecturer : If you don't want to see me next year, you better see me either on mon or tues allowing me to clear my doubts. HAHAS! I'm pretty sure he doesn't wants to see me in HIS CLASS next year. (: That's about it with studies side, will be kissing the holiday air soon.

I've realised quite a number of things this few months.

Uh uh~! I'm gonna wait till there's this guy who will love me like my parents. Seen the worst side of me, my bad temper, my busy life, my childishness, my unreasonable side, my stupid excuses, my laziness and everything bad about me but never gonna give up on me but to love me the same. (:

Everyone got their own individual life. There's only so much that we can help, individual problems still have to be solved by individuals. GOTTA START BEING INDEPENDENT PEOPLE! (:

Remember, Tough time won't last. Hang in there and you'll see the rainbow after the storm. :D

2011-02-22T23:35:00.003+08:00

HARLOW LOVELY PEOPLE WHO STILL DO VISIT MY BLOG! :D

BELATED CHINESE NEW YEAR PHOTOS!

Actually, there's still TONS of photos. Lazy to upload ALL here. (: That's all for CNY.

2011-02-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

Short update on my life. Damn screwed! This week is super CRAZY! Project deadlines all this week. All the lectureres thought we only got their modules and nothing else? Args.

But still... ...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYONE OUT THERE. ♥

2011-02-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

Harlow everyone, i know my blog is rotting so that's why i'm here to clear the mushroom. hahas!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ANGBAO MANY MANY MUCH MUCH!

Went to Malaysia for Chinese New Year and back now. Gonna start the crazy weeks ahead already. Project deadlines and such. GOSH! ): I can't wait for holiday! I want to stay in malaysia, although there's nothing much to do there except chit chatting, spending time with family, especially my grandparents but it's stress-free. When i can't sleep at night, my grandma will tell me stories until i fell asleep! I love her max.

I'm gonna buy her a new wallet and also clothings the next time i go back. (: OH YA! A new dog chain for ronny too! (Y)

Sometimes it's hard to go back to something, i understand.